This is the bio of 20 year old Marco. Let’s see how far I’ve gone as present 22 year old Marco:
1. Still a med student, although in clinical years now #tearsofjoy
2. No longer 20, which is bittersweet. Bitter in that I am getting older, sweet because people actually listen to what this old soul says now.
3. Future brain surgeon: ummmm no. The dream still stands, but I have made more dreams. I now aspire to work in the WHO, and while being a brain surgeon is cool and all, it will not allow me to have enough time to work in a non-governmental organization. So this might change
4. Study hard. Party harder. Pray hardest : Congratulations present me, you have not changed at all!
I am really glad that this blog has served its purpose unexpectedly well. And I can clearly say at the moment: I have experienced a very wonderful life. I just hope that I had documented most of the things I did in the past 2 years, because it has been one hell of a roller coaster ride!
Hello everyone! Did you miss me? Of course you do, silly!
—- Jokes aside, I might be talking to myself 3-5 years from now. Hello future dr. Marco! How’s it going in WHO or wherever it is you are now?
I am terribly sorry for the lack of updates, but it just seems as if that life has taken me full on and I just cannot keep track of things (i.e. tumblr) anymore. And by life I mean medical school, which is a paradox, since medical school life is a life without life, or an unlife. Yes, we aspiring medical doctors sacrifice a significant portion of our life to save your life in the future! So during this dreadful, painstakingly awful times we would very much appreciate it if you can tolerate our vanishing moves, our canceled plans, and our hopeless promises. Remember: this too shall pass.
I am writing at the moment because my urge to write has been increasingly spiking over the last few months since basically, I have not had any chances to write anything thoughtful or conflicting other than my med assignments. But here I am, aside from heaps of materials I need to learn, I find it possible to write a simple post about how complicated (or at least I perceive it to be) my life is. It is laughable how often we make excuses for the things we don’t do. In fact, there should be a correction: we make excuses for the things we don’t want to do.
Yes, desire. It is just as simple as that. Your desires, your thoughts, your critical thinking decide your course of action. For the activities that you don’t do, though, you find plausible reasons as to why you didn’t do it to begin with. Probably, most of the time you say you simply don’t have the time. This is particularly ironic since this happened to me and yours truly’s blog name is, well….. time to think.
Well, now I am trying to prove my point: I can write if I want to. This is what I find most moving and can be applied to any sort of life situation. To generalize, you can do almost anything if you want to. Of course, your actions should mirror your desires. But this desire shall be the one who ignites the wick of your journey candle. And when the wick burns, along the course of your journey you might face fluctuative wind. Sometimes the wind blows in your favor, another time it blows you head on and you feel as if you have lost hope and your desire has diminished to a tiny ember. But it still burns, and with great personal desire comes a raging wick. Now, what happens to a candle which wick burns ever so brightly? That’s right, it ends its journey swiftly.
That said, it is of utmost importance for everyone to have a burning desire in their life. Be it in relationship, career, or overall fitness, you all need the push - the drive -. to get you to where you should or expect to go. And when you are moving, according to the laws of physics, it is more difficult for you to stop than for you to keep on moving (see, I learned something during my time in high school!).
Now, even though I know this secret since I was in high school, I seem to forget this from time to time. I tend to prioritize things that are more immediate, stuff which has a more instant impact, and actions which garner immediate rewards. What I lack, especially in the case of writing, is developing a habit to write.
"A habit is the intersection of knowledge, skill and desire." ~ Steven Covey
Now, Mr. Covey in his book the Seven Habits of Highly Effective People has clearly shown me the way to develop my writing habit. It involves knowledge (what to write), skill (how to write), and desire (want to write). Actually, this formula albeit obviously simplified applies to almost every situation in life, and I have clearly experienced this as well. I developed my fitness habit (3-4 times a week!) which is surprisingly unaffected by my clinical years since I have a burning desire to get physically fit to set a good example for my patients (I was morbidly obese, a story for a later time). Now, the same case can be applied for writing; I just need to have the desire to write!
The best thing about writing
The best thing in writing, I almost always realize, is that you can write the body but you can never write the title first. For example, this post was supposedly about the importance of having a journal for you to keep since having the opportunity to look back and see how far you have been on your journey is priceless. But it turned out rather differently; I realized I have not been writing much since I just have not had the desire to and this needs to change. For this purpose the title is preserved, and I know next time that when I write, I will write whatever it is I want to convey first, then write the appropriate title later! After all, this is the time to think, not a case report about an illness (which I will try very hard not to digress for the sake of not digressing my medical education, thank you very much!).
Although, I would like to note that I am really happy I did not delete my blog. Looking through what my 18-19-20-21 year old self thought in the past brought a lot of emotions to my 22 year old present self. I am actually proud to have gone this far. I am especially amused that most of the things I thought was dire back then turned out to be minuscule and just my old self overreacting. Over the years I have developed the less-panicky and stressed out to the more accepting and relaxed self. And I like the person I am becoming :)
Also, I realize that I make a lot of excuses #becausemedschool . I really should really stop using this as an excuse, although most of the time, this is true.
"I have microblogged too much, I can’t write a proper post anymore"–I really, really want to start writing again. Stay tuned as the writer attempts to equip his dusty thinking cap!
Sometimes I like to be alone. I like hiding beneath my blankie, turning off my laptop and light, and set my phone to airplane mode.
Then, I can wander off to the amazing world that is imagination"–I swear I wasn’t high when I wrote this.
"Oh hi. Hello there. It’s been a year :)"
Guys, i lost my phone. In the meantime, please contact me via line: drmarcocm, email: firstname.lastname@example.org twitter @drmarcocm
Or via facebook and path. Sorry if i do not reply bbm/calls/whatsapp, will try to get a new contact number ASAP! Cheers – Read on Path.
Okay. Imagine yourself studying for an exam and when you open your material for the exam, this popped up.
"Pleasantly" is a meek way to express how surprised I was.
"been away for a while from tumblr. so yeah. hello."